Bill H practice log

[Bill H]

Odd - yesterday out loud slow noting seemed like the right thing to do, and it felt like I got very content and relaxed this way, almost 'bored', very clear... Sat again last night and was essentially in panic mode the whole time, completely unworkable, unable to note anything at all in a useful way. This morning decided to work on it in chunks as it was still there, finding a spot in the neck that I could not feel easily and breathing into/out of that area the whole time felt very healing. That particular idea is something that my somatic therapist wants me to try, essentially finding a spot of unpleasantess and just trying to become OK with that little spot, relaxing it if possible, not going into the rest of it which seems to spin me up into a panic. It would be great to note this and gain dispassion to it somehow that way but that doesn't seem to work every day..